What matters today? How will you know that what you do counts?
What matters today? How will you know that what you do counts?
January 15, 2016 was the 29th anniversary of my first dance with the arching angles of Death. This initial experience of dying did far more than change my ideas about living; gone was the fear of death hammered into me by family, preachers and supposed teachers; in an instant my terror of being misunderstood, judged and a verdict rendered “Unworthy”, evaporated. In its place was the engulfing presence of unconditional compassion whose veracity catalysed the unassailable realisation that the life I had erroneously thought I was living was pure fiction. My absolute reluctance to return was only slightly weaker than the intent of one who was determined to pull me back.
Three weeks later, my heart stopped again, this time for no discernible reason. Au contraire. In an experience many consider a ‘dream’ I was presented with a choice; that I could live or go home, die. It was not an easy decision then, and today thinking about that moment causes tears to overflow… Eternity, no time and timelessness….. So it is that this weekend brings me to what is perhaps the most important anniversary in my life. 07 February, its 29-years since that cold night in Chicago when I said ‘Yes’, agreeing to stay. Simply put, dying gave me my reason for living.
Those who know me best know that keeping my commitment has come at a high cost, a price most would be unwilling to pay.
The video you will see here may help you understand why I have never wavered. Dr. Christopher Kerr is one of my new ‘heroes’, spending day after day nurturing those who are dying, and in their progress he has been embraced by pure grace. I share his message and stories with more than a modicum of hope that hearing his words might help some of those I love understand why doing what I do has never been an option. Many espouse the belief that God is the single most important factor in their lives; consulted in every decision they make. Tragically, examination of the evidence leaves me wondering what happened to Love? even though their lives present evidence to the contrary.
Thankfully, my NDEs are no longer anecdotal, and what I experienced —the Mereon Matrix— was retrieved and is daily being further recalled and constructed. It continues to provide evidence that we are walking a living continuum, knowledge that supports the growing realisation that life continues beyond what we think of as ‘dying’. This video was a powerful reminder of why I am able to keep on keeping on despite many emotional ‘deaths’, pain, personal loss and ongoing grief caused by emotional paper-cuts. Choosing to live and speak what is true for me, mapping what is to date the simplest known ligature, connection of Love, has led to my being severed from former friends and dearly loved relatives. While I am the first to admit that there are that the sorrow feels never-ending, thankfully, being free to express my sadness, and powerful reminders such as this video carry me through, living a life filled with breakthroughs rather than the breakdown some might ‘wish’.
Sadly, love is too often conditional, relative to what we say or do. Perhaps if our relatives and those we love understood relativity, that the laws of physics, how things, including loving relationships work, are the same everywhere, our lives might change as well as how we live every breath on the edge of death whether we like it or not.
A reminder of the original impetus for these thoughts: “At the quantum level, reality does not exist if you are not looking at it.”
Quantum mechanics is simply a naming for a metaphor. These two words are a description for an exploration that at the noble end intends to identify the Source, and lead to an understanding about the harmony inherent in the forces that led to life and determine the quality of our lives. At the not-so-noble end these words fit what some are doing to manipulate the small stuff to fit their idea about what ‘Is’ or should be. Clearly, the definition of ‘Is’ need not be scientific. At one end of existential spectrum, life is a wide open investigation that hopefully leads to wisdom and wise actions. However, at the other it’s the Grand Inquisition all over again and as we know too well, it’s likely to result in a gargantuan mess, consequence those who started it weren’t smart enough to imagine.
Dia.Blog.ue RSSRemember that what happens in your life happens to you, and it isn’t necessarily about you. What you make of what ‘was’ reveal the qualities of your spirit, and it is this that defines the quality of your lifetime.
Make gratitude your Number 1 attitude and change instantly becomes transformation!
For those I Love, inspired by and for my Friend, Harlon Davey
Travelling by train from Locarno to Luzern the other day, speed and the pouring rain created the most amazing images on and out my window. Shifting my focus from inside to out gave birth to a river of shifting ‘dreamscapes’ and landscapes
that continue to catalyse thoughts that even now are growing into an awareness that time is etching a new chapter in my life.
You are loved my friend, your presence in every moment we share a conclusion in my life. Each word and step we make or imagine together is an arrival point, friendship exceed-ingly beyond the illusion of a supposed destination.
Grace is how and why I believe in you. It allows me to want the best for you with no need of needing something from you.
I am celebrating that we are Creation’s loving intention, and that we can make best choices without the fear of messing up and living on our knees begging others for second chances that they don’t have the power to offer.
An incarnation in Time and Space is a divine opportunity. Thriving in a Universe that is eternally birthed in paradox, a world where We are the solution and what We force is the source of every problem, is our task.
The realisation that We are the Love that makes Our world whole, cuts the umbilical cord to fear and the Flow begins.
When We become the Juice, the true sweet star-stuff, the font of greed dries up and the grand delusions that spin all illusions are blown away on the eternal winds of change.
We are good enough.
WE are as good as We are together.
Openness gives us the courage to live our lives, accepting the Invitation when others toss flowers, thinking that without them we’re in a grave state. Fleeting, flickering moments of emotional dying are as delusional as the grandest delusion, death.
When every ‘I’ celebrates every ME, the World flips. And on the Day when the very royal WE turns around We will look through the eyes of Love and see a re-visioned world, Beauty beyond what most currently dare dream or imagine.
It’s time to bring our BIG dreams to life as we courageously live the largess of Love.